Let’s Be Honest – Postpartum Anxiety and Depression

I feel the need to tell everyone that it may seem like I have my shit together, but in reality, I really don’t.

Let’s just start there.

I do enjoy dressing up and taking photos. I often get lost in daydreams of future post ideas or possible outfits. However, I find myself wanting to relax and sit on a couch while Michael watches cartoons all day. I am not the perfect Mother and that IS OKAY! I may not post every single day on my Instagram or my blog but that’s because I end up on a couch over analyzing everything when I attempt to “relax”.

So, here’s the story that I haven’t shared. Shit’s about to get real.

I started this blog only a few months ago because I was/am struggling with Postpartum Anxiety and Depression. It has just recently hit me the hardest. I know that keeping my mind busy and occupied helps me get through the day. I want other mamas to know that they are NOT alone.
It’s not like I don’t have everything I ever wanted. I am so blessed with my family and everything I have. Yet, I still feel terrified, overwhelmed and entirely lost. I am normally constantly anxious and worried, about everything and nothing. I am always living in a mist of what if’s and confusion. It’s a hormone shit show.

But, I will also be real.

For others out there, they may be embarrassed to admit what they are feeling and going through. If you’re reading and are experiencing all of this, I want you to know that it’s okay. Don’t be embarrassed to tell anyone. The first person I told was my husband. Just being able to tell someone took a lot of weight off me. It’s okay to be open about what and how you feel. I started a small community on my Instagram. I follow some incredible mamas on there that inspire me and lift me up daily.

I’ve faced some rough times in the last year, and I know I’m not alone. I know other mamas need help, too. And I want you to know: IT’S OKAY. You’ve done enough. You’ve struggled enough. You are strong, and you will get through this.

And maybe one day we’ll have our shit together.

But for now, it’s OKAY.

XO
Sofia